Something I like to share...

Guy with ego keeps it low + Girl with attitude keeps it cool = A fine couple...

Do call her if you are a gentleman,

Please call her if you still care about her,

Must call her if you love her.

All the best wishes to all the couples out there. Peace y'll

Been diving too deep by myself.

Once again, I'm really and deeply disappointed in myself.

I can't get thing straight like I used to do.

I can't make the right decision.

Wrong decisions upon wrong decisions.

These mistakes are really catching up on me. I really don't know how much left in me, myself to keep me going. Even there are some, is it enough for me to finish this long rally. Man, I'm really down right now. Feel so empty. Is it because I'm not giving enough or it's just too hard for me. Why there are so little thing I can deal with? Why can't I be like my sister, as strong as she is, as intelligent as she is and as determined as she is. To all my buddies, sorry for being such a jerk, sorry for failing you guys.

Back to WAR ZONE and Stop TRIPPIN' man

I am back to this familiar war zone since last Thursday. It looks familiar to me but somehow it ain't. I have to admit things are not like the last time when I'm here. But I ain't complaining a single bit of it. And I have to live through it. I gotta stop trippin' and get back to what I'm suppose to do. I came back here for reasons upon reasons.

For all this while I realized I have been cheating myself. Going back and forth from reality world to fantasy world. Sometimes, things ain't what I want to see but I just kept giving myself reasons to have a quick get away. This ain't right man. I gotta snap out from that cause every get away I had is making ma life harder and harder. Harder for me to breath, harder for me to wake up every morning, harder for me to speak and harder for me to live this life.

I'm sick of it. Seriously. NO more quick gettaway. Face it and Deal with it. Thats what I'm born to do. I know I'm special. Each and everyone out there are special too. I know it takes time for me to stand up once more, once and for all but I ain't giving up. and Wish me luck guys. Peace y'll, I'm out.

The CNY : 2nd day.

Lots of stuff are going on. Everything happen like they are suppose to. I guess you guys know what I mean. It's Chinese New Year. Yeah....as for today me and ma family went to shopping mall after visiting because we are just too bored. Then, I kinda went searching for notes books or exercise books for the coming sem. Hmmm..I guess something wrong with me man...I guess I got used to the hectic life all this while. I hope this kind of feeling will keep me going all the way. And one more thing is ma sis is going back to AUS very soon. Its kinda like we just do not have enough time together. She was back on NOV last sem but I was doing ma summer sem. Now, I'm back she is leaving. Oh boy oh boy. See how things go. Hope for best, make every second counts.

Appreciation

I don't know what to say. man..Just a simple thank....a sincere one should do..thank you all. Ma buddies....I appreciate it. Peace y'all. I'm out....

One more time...

I have been studying for non-stop since last year August. For once in ma life time, I have been quarantined from all de fun and freedom people enjoying rite now for this long. BUT, I had chose to take this path. A path that most take it as if I'm a dumb person to do such a thing. To be honest with you all, I have never regret of taking this summer sem. I like it. I enjoy it. If i have not take this summer sem, I will not get so close to ma buddies for both study and basketball.

As for basketball, me n ma buddies basically improved a lot under the guidance of DANIEL, our coach. I never expect to play a single game with DANIEL but this summer sem gave me chances to play n learn from him. I was so afraid of DANIEL before but when I get to noe him better he is just as nice as u wish he is.

As for study, I can say is fun. At the beginning, me and Colin are like fooling in class all day long but then we still are doing good. Then later, we started to form group study with MIKE who drive a red "KANCIL" haha...and things just keep getting better and better. We are supposed to have YLT meeting but then as a member of YLT we should care and understand our, ZOO. She has been given special privilege for spending FULL time with her BAOBEI. We all are doing fine. Now, the only thing left for us is final.

SO, guys c'mon lets strive for one last time before this summer sem end. Wish u guys all the best and good luck. PEACE y'll. I'm OUT.

Is SHOW TIME..

With all the joy and relief, I guess is time for me to get back on track. Get serious with the on coming waves. Very soon after getting through this waves I'll be heading home from this war zone.

Before that, I have to be 100% NONONO 110% ready to face my Test 3 and of course the Final. I have faith and beliefs in myself. I want to end this nicely one more time, better than the one before this. I got to put in everything I got into this. With my buddies with me, I guess after all the wars we gone through this might not be the easiest but another war that need support from one another like we always do. So, keep it up. Hang in there with me, I'll do everything I can to make sure we get through this with smile on our faces. Time to get serious and do what I gotta do. Wish me luck guys, thank you for all the support you guys have given me. Thanks.

All rite guys, enough with the formal stuff man...I do ma best in ma test and that will be ma commitment to y'll...peace y'll....I'm out...

King of KINGS, Queen of QUEENS

Thank you.

Thank you guys if it wasn't because of you guys I have probably gave up at the last pit stop,

Thank you guys for pulling me out from the dead,

Thank you guys for not giving up on me,

Thank you guys for sharing all the laughters and sweats together,

Thank you guys for all the loves and hates,

I appreciate each and every single bit of it.

Another chapter of life, this might be the hardest and most emotional chapter I ever gone through. Wave of challenges going against us leaving us with no choice but to fight back with tears, fatigue and guts. We broke into pieces, we cried, we screamed and wished for hope to come around and bring us out of this misery upon misery. But it doesn't seem to work, we were on the edge of falling. Just then, we realized how strong we are, how strong we can be. With all of us around basically we are the most fearsome human beings that ever live on this planet. With a little encouragement from one another, we stood still facing the endless waves with no fear but a smile on the face. We are the King of KINGS and Queen of QUEENS. This basically changes everything. Changes my life changes my thoughts forever. Without you guys I'm nothing. I owe you guys big time. Thank you. With my own will, I'm gonna make this world a better place to live in. Peace y'll...I'm out.

Summer sem

I think summer semester is gonna end very soon but i got two more quiz to go and a final paper. Hell ya. Kinda sucky thou. It doesn't matter because the worst part is gonna unveil soon..very soon. I just wish I will get what I deserved. Thats all, that will be the bottom line. Nothing more, Nothing less. Today I got a lot to do as I gotta move myself out from ma crib and move to ma new crib which is just opposite ma old one. After moving everything I guess I'm go straight to have ma lunch and then take bath. After that, most probably gonna have a short nap then study, man. Ma mission today is to finish what I have planned for maself. Is not about whether I have to do it or not but is a MUST. So, guys wish me luck. I tried ma best not to fail you guys. Peace y'll over and out..

CLUBS

Boring day with sun sky high. Nothing to do but day dreaming and I came out with something. Something that I would to share with you guys. To me basically there are two main clubs that have been going for so long. If we don't really pay attention to it, we might just slipped through it. It's kinda sad thou when these clubs which you do not wish to see come about you, stalking you. These clubs are the Utilizer's Club and THE Spare Tyre's Club. IF you think you are doing the right thing, one advice for you. THINK TWICE so that your name would not be registered automatically to those clubs. Anyway, Merry Christmas to you all. Have fun.

Peace y'll.

Ma wonderful birthday....

This is what I got for my 19th birthday from my love ones. A lovely card filled with all the wishes for me. A cake which is my favourite. And the best among all of these is the NIKE basketball. That's my 1st, OFFICIALLY MINE. I wanna thank you guys for making my day. Making me feel so warm and loved. Thanks. I will never ever forget about this.

I LOVE YOU ALL....

MonKEY rite here...PEACE y'll....

Is it over?

I have no idea whether is it over,

I just wish everything would be just nice,

Nothing more, Nothing less,

Just Nice.

People I respected and should be thankful:

My Family duh,

My Swinburne Family.

Thank you all.

I did try ma best,

Everything basically everything,

Nothing left.

All I got to do right now is to wait and see whether all my hard works pay off someday.

I' m OUT.

PEACE to you all.

I TRIED

I tried so hard,

but it doesn't seems right,

I tried to stay close,

but the gap is getting bigger,

I tried to cope with it,

but it seems like not working,

I tried to be calm like usual,

but my heart beats getting faster,

I tried to be cool with it,

but it tends to get hotter,

I tried not to let go,

but it keeps on running away from me,

I tried not to give up,

but it is giving up hope on me,

BUT no matter how and what is going to happen,

I will be the strongest survivor.

I am who I am,

I tried to be what I'm suppose to be,

And I am going to make it work.

This is my commitment to you all.

PEACE y'll

Go...

GO..

Go and heal the ones who needed us,

Go and care the ones who are in harm,

Go face the reality of this world,

Go against the forces that come upon us,

Go away and break free from distractions which gave ourselves up,

Go and strive as hard as we are capable of,

Go after what we want,

Go ahead...Together...march towards our one and only goal,

Go and accomplish the mission we started long time ago.

Soon.

Soon we will find our way back,

Soon we will have the gut to fight back,

Soon we will get our confidences back,

Soon we will know how good we really are,

Soon we will see the strong one survive,

Soon we will see the weak one die off,

Soon we will see our hard work all this while had been paid off,

Soon everything will be over..

Joker's Life

Joker right here,

Same sunlight,

Same sky,

Same air,

Different heart,

Different attitude,

Different thoughts,

Same road,

Different way to go through,

Same challenge,

Different approach.

but but.....

Yo this is how it goes

I got ma dream,

ma goal,

One chance,

One opportunity,

One shot,

No second chance, No Nothing,

Don't blow it,

Get it done like before,

Did it more than once,

Let good history repeat by itself.

Out.....peace y'll....

From Clown to JOKER

FROM,
Fade to black,
Spring to autumn,
Joy to tears,
Memories of nobody,
Is hurting me,
Is killing me from the inside out,
You said it best,
When you say nothing at all.....

The Clown is dead

No more, no nothing,
World without clown,

Is like flying without wings,

No laughter, no happiness,

Clown's job,

Making people smile,

Bringing happiness,

Cry at the end of the day,

Take everything in like nothing,

Peace.

I'm OUT

I can't breathe,

I'm tired of what I am right now;

No conciousness, No nothing,

Piece of junk,

Useless,

Something that people hates,

I don't mean to be like this,

This is not what I want,

I'm had given up myself to the blackhole,

No sense of direction,

No light, No nothing,

Compass has to be found,

And I found it,

I got my sense of direction back,

I gotta get myself back,

Then thats the time I'm outta here,

Back to some where I belong,

Breathe like I used to breathe.

I WISH

I wish the rainbow is always there like I want it to be,

I wish the sunshine can keep me going,

I wish the rain can wash away all the pain I have now,

I wish the lighting and thunder can give me strength to get through this,

I wish I have greater inner strength to go through this,

I wish time could be on our side,

I wish everything is easy,

I wish every single step I took is right,

I wish all my believes keep me going,

I wish everything to have a second chance,

I wish I can do something for you,

I wish I can be the pair of hands that do everything for you,

I wish I can be the pair of shoes that walk along with you through the journey of life,

I wish I can be the pair of eyes that see the sunrise and sunset with you,

I wish I can be the pair of ears that listen to each and every word you say,

I wish I can be the cells that protect you from every harm,

I wish I can be the heart that know everything about you,

I wish I have the power to keep you smiling.

All I wish is just to see you smile.