CLUBS

Boring day with sun sky high. Nothing to do but day dreaming and I came out with something. Something that I would to share with you guys. To me basically there are two main clubs that have been going for so long. If we don't really pay attention to it, we might just slipped through it. It's kinda sad thou when these clubs which you do not wish to see come about you, stalking you. These clubs are the Utilizer's Club and THE Spare Tyre's Club. IF you think you are doing the right thing, one advice for you. THINK TWICE so that your name would not be registered automatically to those clubs. Anyway, Merry Christmas to you all. Have fun.

Peace y'll.

Ma wonderful birthday....

This is what I got for my 19th birthday from my love ones. A lovely card filled with all the wishes for me. A cake which is my favourite. And the best among all of these is the NIKE basketball. That's my 1st, OFFICIALLY MINE. I wanna thank you guys for making my day. Making me feel so warm and loved. Thanks. I will never ever forget about this.

I LOVE YOU ALL....

MonKEY rite here...PEACE y'll....

Is it over?

I have no idea whether is it over,

I just wish everything would be just nice,

Nothing more, Nothing less,

Just Nice.

People I respected and should be thankful:

My Family duh,

My Swinburne Family.

Thank you all.

I did try ma best,

Everything basically everything,

Nothing left.

All I got to do right now is to wait and see whether all my hard works pay off someday.

I' m OUT.

PEACE to you all.

I TRIED

I tried so hard,

but it doesn't seems right,

I tried to stay close,

but the gap is getting bigger,

I tried to cope with it,

but it seems like not working,

I tried to be calm like usual,

but my heart beats getting faster,

I tried to be cool with it,

but it tends to get hotter,

I tried not to let go,

but it keeps on running away from me,

I tried not to give up,

but it is giving up hope on me,

BUT no matter how and what is going to happen,

I will be the strongest survivor.

I am who I am,

I tried to be what I'm suppose to be,

And I am going to make it work.

This is my commitment to you all.

PEACE y'll

Go...

GO..

Go and heal the ones who needed us,

Go and care the ones who are in harm,

Go face the reality of this world,

Go against the forces that come upon us,

Go away and break free from distractions which gave ourselves up,

Go and strive as hard as we are capable of,

Go after what we want,

Go ahead...Together...march towards our one and only goal,

Go and accomplish the mission we started long time ago.

Soon.

Soon we will find our way back,

Soon we will have the gut to fight back,

Soon we will get our confidences back,

Soon we will know how good we really are,

Soon we will see the strong one survive,

Soon we will see the weak one die off,

Soon we will see our hard work all this while had been paid off,

Soon everything will be over..

Joker's Life

Joker right here,

Same sunlight,

Same sky,

Same air,

Different heart,

Different attitude,

Different thoughts,

Same road,

Different way to go through,

Same challenge,

Different approach.

but but.....

Yo this is how it goes

I got ma dream,

ma goal,

One chance,

One opportunity,

One shot,

No second chance, No Nothing,

Don't blow it,

Get it done like before,

Did it more than once,

Let good history repeat by itself.

Out.....peace y'll....

From Clown to JOKER

FROM,
Fade to black,
Spring to autumn,
Joy to tears,
Memories of nobody,
Is hurting me,
Is killing me from the inside out,
You said it best,
When you say nothing at all.....

The Clown is dead

No more, no nothing,
World without clown,

Is like flying without wings,

No laughter, no happiness,

Clown's job,

Making people smile,

Bringing happiness,

Cry at the end of the day,

Take everything in like nothing,

Peace.

I'm OUT

I can't breathe,

I'm tired of what I am right now;

No conciousness, No nothing,

Piece of junk,

Useless,

Something that people hates,

I don't mean to be like this,

This is not what I want,

I'm had given up myself to the blackhole,

No sense of direction,

No light, No nothing,

Compass has to be found,

And I found it,

I got my sense of direction back,

I gotta get myself back,

Then thats the time I'm outta here,

Back to some where I belong,

Breathe like I used to breathe.

I WISH

I wish the rainbow is always there like I want it to be,

I wish the sunshine can keep me going,

I wish the rain can wash away all the pain I have now,

I wish the lighting and thunder can give me strength to get through this,

I wish I have greater inner strength to go through this,

I wish time could be on our side,

I wish everything is easy,

I wish every single step I took is right,

I wish all my believes keep me going,

I wish everything to have a second chance,

I wish I can do something for you,

I wish I can be the pair of hands that do everything for you,

I wish I can be the pair of shoes that walk along with you through the journey of life,

I wish I can be the pair of eyes that see the sunrise and sunset with you,

I wish I can be the pair of ears that listen to each and every word you say,

I wish I can be the cells that protect you from every harm,

I wish I can be the heart that know everything about you,

I wish I have the power to keep you smiling.

All I wish is just to see you smile.

Hardest day ever....

One simple word to describe everything, T-I-R-E-D. I think I have nothing left. I feel like I wanna sleep but I can't, it seems like there is something left undone. Man, I gotta catch some sleep now. Thanks you guys for all the support you have for me. Thanks. I appreciate it.

Learn to LOVE but not to HATE

Man..i never know soldering is that hard till now.. It's not just about putting it together but have to go through everything, seriously everything. I'm with ma buddy was doing the thing over and over for 2 days straight. We kinda got fed up since we are different groups we kinda like trying to solve our own problems. Just then, our tutor and a super senior came. He basically brighten ma day. One thing I learnt from him is learn to LOVE but not to HATE. When you hate, you are actually trying to run away from what you chose to do. I had made up ma mind to take E&E, so why not just LOVE it. Colin..seriously thank you man..i appreciate everything u did for me. U guys out there, Colin is someone you can really depend on. If is not because of this buddy man for this semester, i don't know where am I now. GOD BLESS you all.

Hate every single bit of it....

Why it have to be like this? I never thought this would happen, it seems like my biggest fear has finally comes and settle down right in the middle of my path; blocking my way. What I should I do next? It's not about me who is lack of logical thinking is you. Yea you. I seriously hate you. HATE YOU....You took everything from me. My life is suppose to complete, because of you now everything seems so dark which you could never see justice. I always thought that I'm the strongest survivor but now I can't even pull myself together. What is wrong with you? Can't you stop doing what you did best which is killing people from the inside out? Get out of my life...plz...

It's TIME

From tomorrow onwards, everything will change. I need to change not physically but mentally, all this while I have been thinking things will go smoothly and peacefully but I guess I'm wrong. Nothing comes easy and the consequences are around the corner. From tomorrow onwards, I have to make this work for me and for the sake of everyone living close to me. I'm gonna do whatever I can in order to achieve the goal that I set long time ago. No matter what it takes, I'm gonna do it because one thing I know I got a whole family supporting me and backing me up all the times. This is my commitments to you all. Is either time to shine or time to vanish? My choice is TIME to shine.

A NEW BEGINNING

Ma blog got a new look so a brand new look, with brand new start and brand new hopes....n all credit goes to this specific person...someone who is special to me...someone who made ma day...someone who meant a lot to me...Thanks...I really really appreciate it...if there is anything I can just let me know...THANKS...

Judgement day for this very moment is OVER!!!

man..kinda gotten sick a couple days ago...but gettin better now...n today is de day of result publication. and i got ma result edi...kinda satisfied with it n maybe a little disappointed about it...but still ok ...lol...hahaha....but the most important thing i learnt from the previous sem is teamwork n hardwork hoho......thanks guys....i appreciate...

IT's over.....Waiting for the next comin waves

Yuhoo...lol...final it's over two days ago...man...now i'm busy packin ma stuff as the hostel r chasin eveyone out lol...i'm tryin to do ma best to get everythin ready b4 i gone bek to ma home town this sat..this time will spendin much of ma time sleepin and get myself ready for next sem as i expected it's not gonna easier but the opposite of it..so cun help...muz to ma best lo....studyin basically u hav to physically and mentally prepared too...i cun say much out it....but i hav been like most of u out there study for like more than a decade time..so i guez from ma experience both of this hav to be included....LOL....too much talkin lol......now...i'm juz hopin ma final would paz with flyin color...this is ma only wish for this moment of time....so wish me luck..guys.

ALMOZ>>.

swT....lol..one more week to go b4 final...keke
it's kinda rush this couple days...coz most things due
at de end of the semester rite....lol....but..its gettin better
and better since..i'm enjoyin it..actuali tatz de truth..cun help
it...all i got to do rite now is to sit down and start studyin..then everytin
will be A-OK...wish me luck guys....my commitment to u all is i will tried ma
best to get as many HD as i can....

lol....does it reali have to be like tis....kinda sucks lar..

alrite.....assignmnt thingy is finali done ...yuhoo....but...kinda disapponted lol...cun say much about it....but IN CONCLUSION when comes to assignment, your worst enemy is ur best friends. this is wat i learnt thru out my four semester in Swinburne. lol....sucks.....n yea...sucks a lot..cun do anythin bout it...i hope everythin will go smoothly as i hope so...on the other hand, final is comin..soon enuf...2 weeks time...n then holidays yay.....................but b4 holiday...hardworks needed be put to the test....no fear.....like usual lol....hapi go lucky and everythin will be fine...i tried my best to get as many HD as i can lol.....i try...yea....try 1st....n thatz my commitment to u all....n hav faith in me...and of course wish me luck..kekeke

Haiyahai..

sien lo....thursday got test..kinda suck lo..no mood to study ar..hope that i'm able to study first thing in 2moro morning...lol...wish me luck guys wakakaka.....

Er...Numb...i GUezz.

man.....two days non-stop with programmin assignment...OMG lar....but thanks to my budday daniel and stanley..or should i say senior..lol...they were the one who bring me out from de dark. Thanks my man...i owe u guys big time..and i appreciate it. Thanks again..Got a lot of work to do before Gawai, homework + study = GOOD RESULT..thatz wat i wan and wish to hav..so i gotta sturdy hard and of coz keep myself in good condition in order to win this long n tiring battle..wish me luck guys....all de best to u all..

Kinda stress lately...

man...final comin in a month time...lol..should i be glad bout it o wori bout it...?? hmm... i guez both...first of all...everythin except programmin seems ok to me...i hope i can get de feelin like in 1st sem here...now all i got to do it concentrate on wat i'm doing...get over with distractions...then everything should be fine i guez..so guys wish me luck....lol....i noe wat i wan..and i noe i can but i'm afraid i cun cope with the stress...thatz wat i'm wori...but but.....i'm not afraid of anythin if i'm doing for ma mumi....so....chill...keep it real but in de rite way....to myself...."Fred, study hard like there is no 2moro!"...lol..

De day i made my mum felt proud of me....

i was havin presentation yesterday morning...n...things went quite well...i guez is well enough....n de lectures...praised me....very good.....n clapped his hands....he never did that for de whole morning until me...n thats de only time i heard him saying "GOOD, VERy GOOD!". that's not de best part...the best part is my uni languange lecture from de english department came n talk to me...she didnt say anything bout my presentation but asking me whether am i interested in joinin ma uni debate thing....tat means a lot to me...that confirm ma presentation skills plus ma english...........hahaha......

2 down 2 more to go.

yeahhhhhhhhhhhhh...........finali.....2 down 2 more to go.....gotta unwind myself......hahaha....man...during the exam juz now....i was so nervous...i could feel my own hands shaking lol....some didnt finished de papers...but moz did i guez....i did i noe lol....feelin a bit dizzy....i guez is from de sickness i had few days ago...lol....keepin me from goin for basketball.....NOW....lol....

Wat De HELL!!!

man.....sick again......so damn about it....i was fine wednesday nite...but thursday got fever...cun help.....hav to go for de test for energy and motion.....but i found out de test was to easy i guess...i hope i won't make any careless mistakes....now.....almoz finish my E.MATH revision....i guess is bout 80% done....as only four chaps...3 i noe them well enuf i gues..n de laz one i barely...gone thru it...so i hope..i can do well...for 2moro test...wakakaka....wish me luck lol...

ssssssssoooooooooo.........sad....n disappointed......

friends seem like stranger, talk like shit, act like devil.....the worst part of it...is they dun k how u feel.......n dun actuali reali noe who u reali are......man...........i hate it.....i rather be alone.....be gone u guys....i'm hurt from deep inside....tatz all i got to say.....Oh yea....of coz "GOD bless U guys"...gotta go.....study for exam......o_0....sob2..

oh yea...nearly forget..

yesterday i went out chilin wif ma "gang" and these is wat we did.....first we went to pizza hut to hav our lunch...man...me n my buddy, josh...we noe we r both eatin machine...so we order...two of de two person sets seperately ..so we got four pizza in total wif four...different flavours.....haha...we manged to finished part of if n rest we "take away"....hahaha...then we went "shopping..." ..so me n josh again....went to draw some money out of de bank.....but but...unfortunately..the thing...the stupid ATM is out of money..so we got plan on our own....we try to get some from dennis n simon......then add up to a total...lol....hahaha....then five of us..went to padini.....as simon was busy choosin his things...i'm with josh choosin his shirt...lol...then we went to Hush Puppies...lol....then we were doing the same thing oover......finaly....me n josh...saw wat we want....josh tried it out his cloths...two formal n one casual....lol...then its ma turn....i got two formals two...yea....my gang told me tatz for clubbing......man.....nuh....i think as long they look nice on me....others i dun k...lol.....

lol....

mid term break is over............................man...should i be hapi o sad bout it.....some parts yea...but some parts....nuh............i gotta do everything i can to deal with this week exam...keke...chill....chill...take it easy....hahaha...yea...tatz wat i gotta do...but with efficiently...haha....

Er....kinda weird...

man....mid term break is almoz over.....sad.....but glad too...as i can get bek to my "study" lol...since i did studied durin de break....i tried...seriously i did tried to find ma feelin back.....like wat i did durin de first sem here....yea.....man..one nite i was so guilty coz i wasnt studied for two days...so i got up around 11pm n start studyin for 3 hours....goin thru some EMATH...like 3 chapters.....then de time was 2am ba...then watch movie till 4am.....then cun sleep...n stay awake..til next mornin....this kinda feelin had made me sick for de whole month durin laz semester so my result kinda sucks if compare wif de first sem.....lol..haha....wish me luck guys...i tried to score full marks in tis week exam lol....i wil try my best.....

haiz....disappointing...

haiz....mid term break seems to be so short...but i cun spend the time wisely...i tried...but juz cun help it...

Tired.....

man...juz back from basketbal...everything seems to be fine....skills are still there...but something missing....teamwork.....no one seems to be postin up for me...lol...kekeke...too much complaints...argh...nvmd then...it's just a game...hav to go n rest now....got to go.........

Yuhoooooooo......

mid term break........lol.....i reali gotta spend the time wisely...in order to archieve my goal...2moro got to do some engineerin math exercise and CAD..then of coz...chill out.....its been a tough time as time passed without waitin anyone...and...many things have to be done...not juz but need and must be done...no matter wat n how...because this is the only way outta here....

OMG!!!!

lol....juz finished my CAD exam an hour ago...it's kinda easy i guez...if i'm not wrong...lol...hope so....two down one more left to go b4 mid term..sien......dun feel like studying tonight...plan to study 2moro mornin....b4 goin to class.....i'm plannnin to go out chillin 2moro nite o maybe saturday nite...friends are plannin to go clubbing....hmm....could be fun but not reali wat i wan....wait till 2moro then decide....lol....kinda miss my sis...duno y....her laughter...yea...lol...i'm plannin to giv her a surprise...durin her sem break....shhHH.....

so.......wori ........

Man....test comin up.....er....2moro....no mood to study....wat should i do..? Cun concentrate actuali...but no choice...try my best...tatz all i got to say...but but im not suppose to wori....n scare of it...its only CAD...my favourite subject....hav no fear....take it like usual...after this then everythin would be better...i can play basketball during the mid term break....yeah....wish me luck guys..........

Finally....o_o..

yuhoooooooo.....assignment..done.....one done two more tests to go....this thurs and fri....lol...but i think i can handle it well...so i gotta do something about it....study hard like usual or study smart...hmmmm....er...nvmd juz study is enough....MAN....after the testz....mid term break finali...what i got to do during this mid term break it to study hard to cover everythin i missed this time....

so sick of friendship thing....

man......goin through hell these few days.....assignment thingy MAN......when u realize u are actually doing three or whole group works....so damn about it...but u cun do nothing about it....n u had to swallow everything in.....the worst part of this is actuali they are ur friend....i cun stand it anymore...anyone..plz help me....plz.....this is reali killin me.....y people hav to be so selfish....this is too much for me.....

ToO Much pHysic...

OMG...time flies...is almost my mid term break....tests are goin on every now and then....homeworks and revision need to be done....yea....I KNOW all of these....but now i'm worry about whether i done enoough for everythin..cause...i know i did my revision but not as complete as needed to be....due to the "External Force" applied onto me....like Newton's First law...as i'm movin with a constant speed without any net force but after these "ext" force came into my life....i'm no lnger in constant speed...net force appear....i lose my concentration....but but....i'm tryin to spend my mid term Break to cover all of this and going back to "constant speed" mode...i'm aimin for the best so....this is what i got to do....this is my commitment to you guys....

Ma LiFe from TOday onwards.....

It's kinda hard for me lately. Everyday seems to be very busy and streesful...basically, there is not much time left for me to do ma own stuff. Usually, i'll c de nba score and result kinda thing plus log into friendster and do some surfing but now...omg...these parts of ma life had gone missing....i have to deal with lectures and tutotrial thingy every now and then....whenever you wish to take a break..things start to come and never stop coming....but but.....I don't really mind i understand this is life. Things change so does life...so why don't just take everything in like usual...no matter what i must do what i got to do so that i can make my family proud...tatz my ultimate goal right now...no kidding....like what i always tell myself....giving up is never and option.....and now i got an add-on....without giving out, give it all u got!!!

The Game he loves

TEAM POEM
I have awed at a solo performance

And spectacular flashy display,

But I crave for the best

And my eyes are more blessed

When an unselfish team makes a play.

A play that’s so perfect and simple

With the weaving of role with a role,

Every piece partly seen

Like a fine-tuned machine

And you notice not one,

but the whole.

Like an orchestra tuned to perfection

Where harmonious beauty is found,

Every note has a quest

To be part of the rest

So the whole is a masterpiece sound.

Every wild one,

once blinded by glory

Is now cured and is one of the tame,

He receives his esteem

As part of the team

And is eager to sacrifice fame.

It’s amazing what we have accomplished.

It’s astounding how much we have done,

When the ultimate callIs

when one is for all

And the credit is reached for by none.